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Nov 18, 2005 19:08:57 GMT -5
Post by Kender on Nov 18, 2005 19:08:57 GMT -5
why do i even bother with this anymore? i am not very good at keeping things interesting. i do not have an exciting life, not in the lest bit. my life consits of me going from day to day. i judge my good days on how happy i am and how memorable it is. normaily i am emotionless and thoughtful. though what i think about i wouldnt know. i froget as soon as its thought. i sappose that is why i am no good at argueing and expessing myself. i do my best though.
lately i have found that i really dont have many friends. my phone is filled with numbers of people that i never speak to. i keep them there "just in case they do call". how sad is that? waiting for people who dont care. story as old as time in my book. i now have only a couple people or so who i speak to on a regular basis. my boyfriend and my roommates and even that isnt so regular anymore. i wish i had female friend who lived near me. f*ck i wish i had at lest a couple female friends.
this doesnt matter anyways. no one reads my forum.
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lost
Nov 19, 2005 2:23:24 GMT -5
Post by scudknight on Nov 19, 2005 2:23:24 GMT -5
I read it... Believe me, your life is more than interesting. It's just that every movie character hates the situations they get into at the time. Besides, you're a part of my life. How cool is that! Believe me, the story gets better towards the middle. Seriously though, I understand what you mean. I myself have gone thorugh the numbers i've collected in my phone and looked in dismay at them. I don't have many true friends myself, much less people I would put myself on the line for. I have many aqquaintances yes. But way I figure, the more true friends I have, the more likely I will die for them. So I guess I'm pretty lucky? I used to hate blogs. They were too self serving. I used to have a written journal, but I always ended up burning it because I didn't want anyone to read it. Now I have my own and it really doesn't matter if it's read or not (well you better...) because it's there out in the open and I have no want to destroy it. I can now look back on how I was and compare to now. You should consider this a testament of yourself - and look back on your own thoughts in time. I would like to be able to have my kids look back on my thoughts and perhaps see who I was at this age when I am gone. Consider yourself lucky, kid. You are well protected and taken care of as well. Nothing can so much as harm you so long as your friends have anything to say about it - and we don't have to call you and nag your ear off all the time to prove we care. ;D
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Andy
The master of Pr0n
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lost
Nov 19, 2005 2:36:50 GMT -5
Post by Andy on Nov 19, 2005 2:36:50 GMT -5
I know it may not count for much, but i read it from time to time. Vera i dont have very many friends either, not alot of people do. You have the people close to you which are usually a small few and then you have the people who pop in for a guest apperance once in a while. I havent been very happy lately, as you might have noticed, but other people cant make you happy. You have to make you happy, this is becoming my own personal therapy now, luckily only you and maybe three other people will read it anyway.
No matter how depressed or unfullfilled you might feel from the lack of female friends in your life, remember that you have a boyfriend that loves you and some great roommates that care about you. We may be the routine, but we're always there for you.
Hey maybe you and my sister Jessica should start hanging out, she loves to talk and she has nothing but all the time in the world to do it.... yeah right
Dont give up on your forum... if you build it they will come... just give it time
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nee
The phoo-phoo Jedi
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lost
Nov 19, 2005 4:54:56 GMT -5
Post by nee on Nov 19, 2005 4:54:56 GMT -5
I read it too.. so I guess I should pitch in my two cents. I too have a multitude of names on my phone that never show thier faces. But I admittedly dont go out of my way to contact them either. I guess its the old 'quality over quantity' saying. I would personally rather have one friend that I knew truly cared about me than an assload of friends that might show up if I was throwing a party with an open bar. I hate to sound like a fortune cookie... but you will never be alone.
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