Post by Kender on Aug 31, 2005 14:46:55 GMT -5
Things have been pretty normal.
Julie has left, gone back to FL. The next time i see her it will be after mom dies... and after that it will be years.
It is sad that my mothers illness has become a type of normality... i know it shouldn't. i have gotten use to the stress & the sadness. My mother is doing worse off than before.... now she cannot speak at all. she can barly move her arms. shes hangging by a thread. she has lost alot of weight, so much in fact that skin seems to hang off of her. shes in alot of pain... we keep her on a steady does of morphine but moving her seems to hurt her. Life has been so unfair to her. i don't want her to hurt anymore.
*<i>sigh</i>*
Andy came by yesterday. it was nice to see him. He helped with Lilly and my mom. When Rob got home and Lilly went to bed. Andy and Rob played Halo2 together for who knows how long. i fell asleep on the couch for a little while... before i new it Andy was going home. lol Soon Andy will come by just to hang out with Rob and the xbox. Thats what i get for dating a Gamer. no seriously thou Andy is great... im just as Nerdy.
Ive been looking into buying a car. of corse i will have to get my licence before hand [Andy is helpping me with that]... but it doesnt hurt to look and figure out how much i will have to save.
1st licence
2nd car
3rd new boobies
yes,i still plan on getting my breasts done... it is just not at the top of my prioritys right now.
Julie has left, gone back to FL. The next time i see her it will be after mom dies... and after that it will be years.
It is sad that my mothers illness has become a type of normality... i know it shouldn't. i have gotten use to the stress & the sadness. My mother is doing worse off than before.... now she cannot speak at all. she can barly move her arms. shes hangging by a thread. she has lost alot of weight, so much in fact that skin seems to hang off of her. shes in alot of pain... we keep her on a steady does of morphine but moving her seems to hurt her. Life has been so unfair to her. i don't want her to hurt anymore.
*<i>sigh</i>*
Andy came by yesterday. it was nice to see him. He helped with Lilly and my mom. When Rob got home and Lilly went to bed. Andy and Rob played Halo2 together for who knows how long. i fell asleep on the couch for a little while... before i new it Andy was going home. lol Soon Andy will come by just to hang out with Rob and the xbox. Thats what i get for dating a Gamer. no seriously thou Andy is great... im just as Nerdy.
Ive been looking into buying a car. of corse i will have to get my licence before hand [Andy is helpping me with that]... but it doesnt hurt to look and figure out how much i will have to save.
1st licence
2nd car
3rd new boobies
yes,i still plan on getting my breasts done... it is just not at the top of my prioritys right now.